In the wake of hurricane Irma having been living in one of the states affected by the devastation I was really doing an inventory and reflecting on not only my life but just life in general. I began to just list all of the things I take for granted and the list was growing increasingly long with each second it seemed.
Where I stopped at was time. I take time for granted when saying that out loud makes me kind of sad, because due to the storm and the nature of what i do for a living (Emergency medicine) I know the true importance and value of time. So in other words what I am saying is there were things that I was procrastinating doing, this blog post even being one of them (for that I truly am sorry) and when I really looked at it I began to understand that I needed to change that. So I did. The process all began when I started becoming agitated at the way my work was utilizing resources, and it escalated to me being ungrateful for a great many things, even the fact that my home had survived the storm with no damage and we got power back relatively quick. It began to just get worse and worse until the lord had to pull me aside and give me a break to show me how to transform.
He brought me back to a scripture in Hebrews
12 Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, 2 looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.
It helped me realize that even though I felt like I wasn’t doing enough to help in the relief effort I needed to take a break and decompress from the things that had happened in the world around me and in the lives of my family and friends. I began to understand I needed to throw of the metaphysical weights that I had been carrying.
He gave me further insight, A word of the LORD came to me saying. You are not running a race against your brothers and sisters you are running the race against previous versions of yourself. In that moment I realized that the fact that I was becoming unhinged and short with people, the fact that I was ungrateful for what I did have and could do, those were all things that the old me was involved with. So in that moment I repented and prayed to the lord with thanksgiving and praise.
as always thank you for reading the impressions on my heart, I will pray for all who read this that you receive exactly what you came looking for and remember.
Laugh to heal