In my past a dabbled with being self righteous, unknowingly of course. It was brought to light by one of my friends when I was talking about how we are the righteousness of Christ.
2 Corinthians 5:21
God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.
And he was expressing how I wielded that like a weapon and it made him feel isolated.
Not very Christ like I know.
but It got me thinking that we cant present ourselves as untouchable or unrelatable. If we do this, we present Jesus in the same manner, for it is through he that we are made righteous.
1 Corinthians 1:30
It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God–that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption.
So I began to do a little introspection and meditation on the matter, seeking GOD, because I never, ever ,ever want to misrepresent he who saved me from the edge of oblivion, I want everyone to know his love.
If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you.
In seeking him he brought back memories of people speaking things about me because of the things I said, like “Oh well we don’t all see life as rainbows and sunshine Joshua!” or “You should just go be a monk somewhere”
during these instances I didn’t think anything of these statements but through the frame of mind that I may have been sounding like I was chastising them for not thinking my way. I almost got sick. I asked “Lord what would you have me do?” In that moment of unbridled yielding to his Holy Spirit he spoke to me saying “Joshua, show them that you are just as broken, by taking yourself to a previous way of thinking, remember where your mind was, but also remember that it WAS there and is no longer.”
2 And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.
So I began doing thus, and it began bearing fruit almost immediately, I felt like people thought, “Wow if he saved that guy then surely god is for me too.”
16 For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.
31 What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can beagainst us?
but I began to grow complacent and not listing to the spirit of the lord when he said remember that WAS how you though and in forgetting I began to back slide and found my words not matching quite up to my lips, meaning my actions even in secret places were not aligning with the word of the Lord. Even though I was in a previous visited place, it didn’t feel the same. I was hungry for more for I had been deeper and the previous place was fleeting. Upon realizing that I had unknowingly did this my knees hit the ground and I cried out in repentance, Father! forgive me! and immediately felt his Love, his mercy and his Grace wash over me.
17 then He adds, “Their sins and their lawless deeds I will remember no more.”
So maybe you who are reading this struggle with some similar things or maybe the enemy has you feeling condemned or that you are using your righteousness as a weapon, then my prayer is that we all may yield to holy spirit and allow him to love the world through us and in doing so be carriers of his fire that wherever we may roam that we follow the light unto our path. and that we remember there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.