Month: April 2016

Victim mentality

So I had asked GOD to show me how to minister to people who have been victimized to help them overcome and walk in victory. To which he replied “Joshua operate in your sphere of influence.” And showed me the difference between a victim and a survivor. A victim is someone who let’s fear consume them, and whatever is causing the pain and heartache to block out the voice of the lord, I knew this, because of something called survivor’s remorse had me living like a victim for years. Until I looked more into the word survivor. To overcome the event and move forward not ever letting fear or heartache into your thoughts, by doing this, you take an event the enemy was trying to use, and use it as part of your testimony disabling the enemy’s advance and advancing the kingdom here on earth. So whatever got you here today whatever the enemy is trying to use to get you down, I pray that you will have the strength to say I am no longer a victim! I am an overcomer, a survivor in Christ Jesus.



Wrapped up

So a friend was asking me for advice the other day, and venting about a situation in her life. So as I was sitting back listening to what she had going on, she asked how I overcame a similar situation, and like I always try and do is bring it back to the hand book on how to live our lives, the bible, because my advice is fleeting, but the lords advice is eternal, it saturates our very being and soakes down into every fiber of our body. Then I said something that kind of summed up the whole conversation, “don’t get wrapped up in it and keep pressing in and walking it out” so whatever brought you here, whatever you may be going through, and whatever issues you may face don’t get wrapped up in the problem, instead get wrapped up in the arms of GOD


1 John 4:4-16
4 You are of God, little children, and have overcome them, because He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world.5 They are of the world. Therefore they speak as of the world, and the world hears them. 6 We are of God. He who knows God hears us; he who is not of God does not hear us. By this we know the spirit of truth and the spirit of error.

Knowing God Through Love

7 Beloved, let us love one another, for love is of God; and everyone who loves is born of God and knows God. 8 He who does not love does not know God, for God is love. 9 In this the love of God was manifested toward us, that God has sent His only begotten Son into the world, that we might live through Him. 10 In this is love, not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son to be the propitiation for our sins. 11 Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another.

Seeing God Through Love

12 No one has seen God at any time. If we love one another, God abides in us, and His love has been perfected in us. 13 By this we know that we abide in Him, and He in us, because He has given us of His Spirit. 14 And we have seen and testify that the Father has sent the Son as Savior of the world. 15 Whoever confesses that Jesus is the Son of God, God abides in him, and he in God. 16 And we have known and believed the love that God has for us. God is love, and he who abides in love abides in God, and God in him.

The road so far

So the lord spoke to me saying “Joshua, I had you write this calling it the testimony of today, today is the day you shall share yours.” So it truely all starts when I was born, well before I was born really, because a year or so before hand my mother had a miscarriage and was told she was unable to have any more children(already having 3 sons) but, tada! she gets pregnant with me and when I was born my umbilical cord was tied in a true knot and I was purple and not breathing, but luckily the doctor and my mother were belivers of Christ and I was prayed to life, so I grew up in and out of churches, my spirtual gifts developed at a young age, and it was kind of frightening because I thought I was crazy for a long time. fast forward to the age of 14, my family had moved all over the country at this point and my father and mother decided to separate (they are both cool and I am cool with both now I love them dearly) that was the first chink in my armor, turning to worldly vices(drugs and alcohol, women, really anything to try and fill the void), but I still hadn’t fully turned my back on my faith, fast forward to the age of 21 when I did my second deployment to Afghanistan when I was in the United States Marine Corps, where I had seen and did things I wish on no one(don’t asks its the definition of a you had to be there story), there were situations that im sure had my mother and her team not been praying for me I would have been seriously wounded or worse. After that my entire perception changed, I had no value in anything other than battle, adrenaline became my drug, and I had developed PTSD, I kept trying to fill the void with alcohol And relationships but nothing ever worked out because the enemy had me so focused on my pain I forgot how to cry out and felt so unclean that I believed the lie that he wouldn’t even want to speak with me. It all came to a head the weekend I got out of the military I got hit by someone playing the knockout game, my head hit the concrete, but didn’t break my skull so it began to over pressureize and the doctor told my mom that I wouldn’t make it through the night but her and a group of people were praying for me and 3 or so days later I woke up out of a drug induced coma to angels standing all around my bed and Jesus at the head, he put his hand on my chest and said “Joshua its not your time to die, and don’t let anyone tell you what you can’t do”, so ithey said I would need rehab for a year which I didn’t, that I wouldn’t be able to do anything physical ever which I did and am still doing, and that I was at risk for having seizures which I haven’t had a one, I went back in for a check up like 3 months later, fully healed. I met a great family that helped me get back integrated with the body of Christ and I have been healed of my PTSD and been brought out of the darkness. So i was prayed back to life, spiritually and physically. Now I’ve been clean and sober for a year, and am working towards being a firefighter to save lives instead of take them, and I’m going on a mission trip with my church soon to bring peace instead of war. I am single but not lonely and I love how GOD loves, so if you are feeling like you are past redemption and are reading this just know GOD loves you no matter what you’ve done he just wants you to let him help out. All praise and Glory to GOD




The lord brought back a seemingly random memory of mine, of when I was in marine boot camp, I was running something called the confidence course which is a series of large obsticles. As I was reminiscing on the time I remembered how terrified of heights I used to be, and all the drill instructors screaming at me, that’s when I asked “GOD, why am I remembering this?” To which he replied, “son just as you had to learn how to overcome these obstacles in boot camp, I teach you how to overcome the obstacles and fear in life” and so I thanked him for guidance and for doing so in a manner that I receive, so gentle and kind, and not screaming like the drill instructor, so if you are struggling with an obsticle or a fear or maybe even both and are reading this my prayer for you is for guidance and knowlage that god loves you no matter what and is going to help you through this

1 john 4:4
4 You are of God, little children, and have overcome them, because He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world.